My symptoms really consisted of postnatal depression, generalised anxiety disorder, derealisation and chronic OCD and this all seemed to be linked to the IVF treatment, the medication I was taking to sustain the pregnancy. The trauma of major surgery, the lack of sleep, it led me to a very dark place.

I was in such a terrible place; I can remember the long nights, being kept up by the babies. I was exhausted. When I did have chance to rest my heart would constantly beat heavily, my brain would go through disturbing and intrusive thoughts. These thoughts made me feel physically sick; they effected how I felt every day.

I almost felt like I was in my very own horror movie and I was the main character. No one around me seemed to understand why I was feeling this way; they just didn’t know how to help me. Nothing seemed real, I felt very detached from my own body, and it was though I was in a constant dreamlike state. The panic attacks surrounding my life were just awful; I was in so much despair. I felt like I was in a constant childlike state, terrified. Every day was like Groundhog Day, feed, change, feed, sleep, feed etc.

I went to my GP in a very bad state, desperately wanting something to put my anxiety and depression at bay. I got medication that I had to take, but looking back now if I had known then that all of these feelings stemmed from anxiety and that it was normal to feel like this, I would have definitely been more at ease and it probably would never have gotten so bad.

I searched the Internet constantly for my symptoms and what they meant, that’s when I came across The Linden Method.

That’s where I saw a clip of Kate Ford (the actress who plays Tracy Barlow in Coronation Street) had used The Method herself and it helped her massively after the birth of her baby.

After seeing her testimonial, I did more research and seeing so many past clients accounts of how The Linden Method changed their lives gave me so much hope. Especially seeing Linda Robson’s story and the fantastic recovery of her son!

The Linden Method is portable, you can access it 24/7, this helped me hugely through those sleepless nights with my new babies. I would make sure I had my phone on me at all times so I could access The Programme at any moment. I was always equipped with headphones so I could go about my daily routine but listen to all the tools that I needed for those days

I had Charles’ voice in my ears on a flight to Spain and it made the journey so much more bearable. Without this Programme I would never have gotten on that plane in the first place, I had an amazing holiday, something I thought I would never have and I didn’t even need to take my medication whilst I was away because I was so happy being on holiday with my family.